Theseus

31  There are still a few other things I'd like to relate, which add another dimension—and clarity—to the church in Southern Oregon. It centers mainly around my relationship with my boss in Grants Pass, and the company which had moved, from Grants Pass (4) (n15) to Medford (6) (n20). And to my boss I've ascribed the qualities of Theseus, a key figure in Greek mythology and integral player in the Dionysian myth. As I describe our relationship, perhaps you'll begin to see an uncanny resemblance, and draw the same conclusion I have? I'll start by describing my boss a little.

32  After relocating to Grants Pass from Los Angeles in the early-seventies, he opted to leave the rat race and become a subsistence farmer. Instead, he became vice president of a small electronics firm in Grants Pass working with his father. This is where we met, in December 1983. And, to hear him describe his youthful carrying-ons in Malibu, near Los Angeles, suggests one thing: conquest. And so to him I've ascribed the exploits of Theseus; his name even sounds similar. He who dared mock Heracles, a.k.a. Hercules, Theseus, the pseudo Heracles, is renowned for slaying the Minotaur, the half-man half-bull monster of the Labyrinth: with the aid of Ariadne, who later became Dionysus' wife.

33  Though somewhat crude and barbarous, and with a lot of carnage, more towards animals, my boss would ramble on and on, with extensive detail. And throughout his adventures, if one thing could be said about him, it was exacting vengeance. But he rarely picked a fight, instead, he focused on those who were malevolent and tried molesting him—which were many—and so exacted it on those who deserved it. This one conclusion could always be drawn. And it was done such in a way to reciprocate the torment the tormentor placed on his victim: making the punishment fit the crime. Indeed, these were the ways of Theseus, and Heracles. And like Theseus, who spent his youth ridding the coastline of criminals, my boss spent most of his youth in Malibu, doing the same thing!

Three Conquerors

34  And so we have the first of three conquerors to enter Southern Oregon. Indeed my boss had talked to me more than once, of his grand scheme—world conquest! the United States anyway. It was a notion he liked to entertain, or daydream about, of would be like if he controlled everything, and he was very elaborate about the details. Of course he was only half-serious. A few years later, in the late seventies, the second conqueror arrived in Southern Oregon, Roy Masters. This is even more conspicuous with the exposure he's had in his all out war, against sin. While in late 1983, the third conqueror arrived, which of course I am referring to myself. And though it may not be apparent, for I haven't had the exposure of either man, it is signified. In context with this book, none of which has been fabricated, it becomes apparent though. And here I arrived at the back door unannounced.

35  And so correlates with the three degrees of heavenly states Swedenborg maintains, that I refer to elsewhwere (n6:44; n7:17): the first is the natural (1), signified by my boss, the second is the spiritual (2), signified by Roy Masters, and the third is the celestial (3), signified by myself. Similarly there's the Holy Trinity: The Father (1), The Son (2) and The Holy Ghost (3), which signify the mind (1), the flesh (2) and the spirit (3). And here, where Jesus is called The Son (2), and appears in the flesh (2), He receives most of the notoriety. The same could be said of Roy Masters.

36  To continue with the three degrees, I believe something similar is signified by the three prophets, Isaiah, Jeremiah and Ezekiel, who came in succession. Isaiah who preached of things to come: "Thus saith the Lord . . ." Jeremiah who also preached, but with a more personal account of Who sent him: "Then the Lord said unto me . . ." And Ezekiel, who spoke of his work in the spirit, and gave his account of the New Jerusalem in heaven: "And the word of the Lord came unto me saying, Son of Man, set thy face against . . ." Beyond these three books, the book of Daniel speaks of what transpired during the period of The Captivity.

37  When speaking of the angels of the first or natural degree, Swedenborg says these are those who have lived morally, and believe in God in some form, but care little about being instructed. And though somewhat egotistical and taking pride in his intelligence—which was Adam's sin—my boss was typically moral and evenhanded with people. And while he claimed to be agnostic, he didn't discount the possibility of God, and at least maintained an open mind about it. However, he didn't care to be instructed, a conversation I had several times with him. So we seem to be speaking of the same thing as Swedenborg here. And so it's significant that Swedenborg says the natural world corresponds to the sea, for Theseus was the son of Poseidon (n14:13)—the ruler of the sea.

Noah's Ark / Cave Junction

38  Now there's one experience my boss related to me before I left Southern Oregon, in 1990, that really brought home the connection between him and Roy Masters. It concerns Noah's Ark, the petting zoo in Cave Junction (n10), which was purchased from the Foundation of Human Understanding and undergoing renovation. And the new owner, who have been affiliated with Roy Masters? was selling the old lumber. And of all the people to buy the lumber, guess who that was? My boss! And when he and the owner talked, guess who they talked about? Roy Masters! And while the owner had nothing but compliments for Roy, my boss spoke—somewhat mischievously—of what a sham it all was!

39  And the funniest thing happened when hauling the lumber home. He was sure he passed Roy on the highway, storming by, with an intense look on his face. Indeed I know the look— like a bull! And I'm not I surprised, for it's one of Roy's trademarks. He has a knack for showing up when he's being talked about, especially when it's uncomplimentary. And so in bringing up Cave Junction and Selma, Roy Masters probably had business in Selma, and the churches of Adam and Noah—i.e., dismantling the Ark by my boss—together with the first two spiritual levels (n35), it suggests a clear connection between these two men.

The Minotaur

40  It's so clear in fact, that it suggests the true nature of the Minotaur, the dreaded bull-headed monster of the Labyrinth. The touted stepson of King Minos of Crete, the Minotaur sprang from the unnatural desire of Mino's wife, Pasiphae, towards the prize bull given to him by Zeus, albeit some say Poseidon. While the Cretans claim there was no Minotaur, but the king's cruel general, Taurus, i.e., Minos and Taurus combine to form Minotaur. Either way, it brings to mind Taurus—the bull—the second sign of the Zodiac. And how often have I heard Roy Masters say, "You have to take the bull by the horns!" The fact is, he and his people are so adept at wrestling the bull, that they've become the bull—towards everyone else! And so I've ascribed them to Smyrna, the second church, and its false doctrine (n11:83).

41  So what does it mean? To begin with, no matter how good your intentions are, if your beliefs are based on false ideas, it requires a lot of stubbornness—even force—to maintain. What else can it mean, except being bull-headed! Hence we're speaking of the masculine will, which doesn't rule by truth, but by force. Indeed it's often expressed this way. This is the Minotaur, and it's who these people are. And when they confront you, they stand directly in your path, without budging, and force you to wrestle their philosophy. While somebody gets railroaded! So, what do they mean when they say that's a load of bull? While to atone for the death of Minos' son Androgeus, slain by the Athenians or, some say, Minos' crazed bull, Minos exacted seven youths and seven maidens every nine years, to be sacrificed to the Minotaur in the Labyrinth, where they were devoured.

42  Indeed there's a clear correlation between Roy Masters and King Minos. For the name Roy means king and, for his just rule on earth, Minos was made supreme judge of the underworld after his death—i.e., master of souls. Thus when preaching his doctrine, Roy portrays a stark contrast, which is stern and foreboding, and people get trampled on. And while most people aren't ready for this, a large percentage is young people, who are the most impressionable. How many will it take to fulfill the sacrifice! While the account the Cretans give is just as valid. They say the Labyrinth was a dungeon where the youths were detained, until the king's funeral games, where they were given as slaves to the winner of the king's wrestling match: which, was always General Taurus! Indeed: No one can refute Roy Masters' doctrine!

The Masculine Will

43  And so alludes to Minos' glorified bull and, to the masculine will—which is a sham—and explains the nature of his wife's lust. Which is precisely what Roy Masters upholds! It's mostly a matter of chivalry, as I explain in Prudence (n4:61), in an attempt to outshine the love of his wife: and here, Roy says women are evil (n9:22). Which, if she is duped into believing and, in exchange for her femininity, she proclaims, "Surely he is far more noble and worthy than I," it's apt to produce monstrous results. When embraced, instead of something less contrived, it gives rise to the Minotaur or, the cruel General Taurus. And yet, unless you can make out the subtle differences, you have no choice but to comply—or, get out of town!

44  It's by virtue of this contrast, that Roy presents to you the hell in your mind: the inescapable dungeon or labyrinth, where the unspeakable Minotaur lurks. And how often have I lost myself in the labyrinth of my own mind, trying to measure up to Roy's standards! And while there are many truths in what he preaches, enough falsities persist, to give the monster its hideousness. This is the guy who does Roy's dirty work!

Theseus and The Minotaur

45  So in mind I see my boss as Theseus, and see him pitted against Roy Masters and his doctrine—which is the Minotaur. I also see it as the ultimate test for Roy's people. For if given half a chance they'd walk all over someone like this and not think twice about it. But since my boss represents the first degree of heaven, Roy has no business molesting him or, a lot of other people. And being no pushover, I see my boss and others like him empowered to overcome Roy Masters. What will remain the case so long as Roy continues to maintain his false beliefs: mainly who they choose to call the devil—and, associate between good and evil. I spoke of this in the last chapter (n11:87), and discuss it further in the next (n13:11).

46  Thus in the ways of Theseus, they're apt to receive a taste of their own medicine, regarding the account of Smyrna and Revelation 2:10 (n11:86): ". . . behold, the devil shall cast some of you into prison; and ye shall have tribulation ten days . . ." that is, until their falsities are removed. They too will be subjected to the devil—or Minotaur—until they understand what it means, their own stubbornness. The jailer not being that different from the jailee. Indeed, through their own misconceptions, a lot of people have been cast into the prison/hell of their minds. Therefore, once they discern who Theseus is, and distance themselves from the fate of their beloved creature, they'll be set free. And Theseus is given the necessary leverage as liberator, to slay the Minotaur!

26th Residence

47  In getting back to the company in Grants Pass (n31), I established this as my 26th residence, the first time I called my workplace a residence (n11:425). But as I had been camping out for two months (n26-30), and continued to do so for a month afterwards, it seemed fitting enough. They also let me collect my mail here, and a couple of times I slept there in the back of my truck. Besides, the company had become integral to who I was: having worked there on two previous occasions, once in early 1984 and once in late 1985.

48  And for most of 1989, I associated the company with The Church, unbeknownst to anyone else. And here, the number 26 corresponds to Judith (12) and, the New Church. While the timing concurs with my confirmation of what I had been working on since 1988: the church in Southern Oregon (n1). I also ascribed the different numbers of the hexagram on the front cover to the people who worked there, what I elaborated on a little with my boss. And though he was no longer vice president, and the company changed owners, and names, he was still in charge of production. And in my eyes was still at the helm. And so I stepped everything off in sequences of 1, beginning with him: while he corresponded to the number 1, I corresponded to the number 3, as mentioned above (n35), and at one point I drew the correlation to the number 3113 (n72): my relating with him—31, together with his relating with me—13.

49  And so it seems fitting that it concur with Theseus, for after slaying the Minotaur and deserting Ariadne below (n65), she ascends to heaven with the bridegroom Dionysus (n4:33,51). Thus portraying the New Church in heaven? (32), Theseus heads back to Athens and establishes the Confederation of Attica, whereby portraying something similar: the New Church on Earth (12) (n67). Any coincidence that it should comprise twelve city states? (n1:20). Wow! While here, a church on earth is required to maintain a church in heaven (n4:110). And, as fate would have it, he marries Ariadne's sister Phaedra who, no doubt became the Queen of Athens, maintaining the relation to Dionysus and Ariadne. Whereby the rites of Dionysus, including the Anthesteria and the fourteen Gerarai (n4:5; n5:12), based on the fourteen young people sacrificed to the Minotaur? (n41; n4:4), became established. Either at that point or, later on.

The Company Moves

50  My main reason for extending this chapter was to relate the next story that occurred when the company moved—regarding the number 46 again! (n4,6). But since I felt I needed to give some additional information, regarding my boss and Theseus, I did. Now that I have, it seems just as important, if not more so, and I'm glad I did: why I added the heading, An Account of Theseus. The company was in the process of moving, between January and February of 1990, and it wasn't until mid-February that it was complete, about the time I started corresponding with Dorothy about The Wizard of Oz (n6:76). And while I was part of the move, and drove to Medford (n20) in the moving vans, I spent most of the time working in Grants Pass (n15). And it wasn't until later that I officially commuted from Grants Pass to Medford in my truck.

51  At the time I was still working with the seven cities (n1), but wasn't sure about the correlation to Medford. And I began to think, "Okay, most everyone will be commuting between Grants Pass and Medford, so maybe a sign or clue will come out of this?" And in my mind I determined it would probably establish my credibility here. Indeed! The first and obvious clue was the number 46 (n4), from Grants Pass (4) to Medford (6) jointly, in accord with Sybil (4) or Grants Pass. This is when I drew the correlation to the pendulum, which I had already developed in Prudence (5) (n4:56) and illustrated in chapter 6 (n87). Where the pendulum swings back and forth between Grants Pass (4) and Medford (6), and Interstate 5 (n1) represents the movement itself!

52  It's also significant that I passed the Grants Pass Caveman, the statue at the northwest end of town, before entering Interstate 5 in the mornings and exiting in the evenings. The Caveman was the official symbol of Grants Pass, and was adopted from the Oregon Caves. And, as the statue carries a club, it's funny that Theseus was renowned for carrying a club! Thus it's significant that Highway 46 runs from Cave Junction (n7) to the Oregon Caves—specifically—and ends there! It also runs east, like Interstate 5 runs east, between Grants Pass and Medford. And here I'd already drawn the correlation between my boss and Cave Junction, even before he said anything about buying the lumber from Noah's Ark! (n38).

Milepost 46

53  And throughout the move I kept a watchful eye on milepost 46, as well as Exit 46, the eastbound exit off Interstate 5. It was just east of Rogue River, and was the entrance to Valley of the Rogue State Park. Remember the correlation to the Rogue Valley? (n20). And I kept thinking, here is the sign—literally—that corresponds to the commute. But I kept wondering about the drive home, westbound (n74), where only the number 64 applied: from Medford (6) to Grants Pass (4).

54  Well on the first day I commuted there was a snowstorm, and as a result Interstate 5 was very slick. Guess what I noticed on the way home that night? Apparently somebody lost control of their car, westbound, and slid off the side of the road. And they ran into milepost 46! They didn't knock it over, but knocked the top bolt out, causing the sign which read from top to bottom, to turn upside down. And even though it was inverted, it still read 64! That was amazing enough, and it's significant that it happened on this day, but there's more. What I won't be relating until I talk about what transpired at work over the next month (n74).

The New Secretary

55  Just before the company moved, my boss hired a new secretary. His main reason being, she lived in Medford and was familiar with the area and could run errands, etc. A young woman in her early twenties, she was engaged to be married, but I understood it was beginning to break off. One of the things I noted about her was her name, which sounded like one of the names ascribed to Sybil (4). In fact it wasn't until later, until after I relate what happens next, that I found it wasn't the same. Indeed, the spelling suggests something entirely different. Although it was similar to the difference between the names Kari and Kerri mentioned in chapter 4 (n13). Anyway I noted the correlation to Sybil—specifically to the number 4—and went about my business. It wasn't until a week or two later, that I began having dreams about her.

56  The first and main dream began with me approaching her at her desk at work. And while I approached, with longing and apprehension, I managed to keep my reserve. But when I looked her in the face, she looked back at me—as if I were her boss—and said: "Well, do you want to argue about it?" Now this is precisely what I said about Sybil, about being predisposed to arguing. Thus we have Sybil (4), in conjunction with Medford (6), and again, the number 46 (n4). But it was only a ploy to show her acknowledgment of me, which is why from there the dream led into its romantic conclusion. It was real and vivid and began to suggest something extraordinary!

57  Being single and 34, and having poor luck with women over the years, but with the desire for a substantial relationship and, my beginning to write this book, I had drafted the first six chapters, I took this to be a positive sign. And things were looking up! Plus there was the connection to Dionysus. And being accustomed to taking the backseat in social situations, I had difficulty expressing myself—due to my unique views at the time—not without compromising myself and becoming like everyone else: loud and self-proclaiming. This in the real sense paved the way to the mental hospital (n11:270). I admit I didn't have the desire either, not caring for all the pretense. Nor by looking at me, would it appear I had much to offer, in a material sense. But now I had my book in hand—something tangible—and it was time to make myself known.

58  I decided to introduce myself with different parts of my book. Then she could see for herself, and determine if I was real or not. While I could see if she was genuinely interested, and gauge my response accordingly. Soon afterwards, on February 13, I gave her chapter 5, The Advent of Dionysus (n1), the first chapter I wrote, which spoke of my rebirth experience along the Russian River (n5:4). I hadn't drafted the part about The Titans yet (n5:16). And I said she could read my other materials if she was interested. When she read it—that day—she was clearly interested, more than anyone else had been. I found it encouraging and decided to give her chapter 4 the next day, Gerarai / The Fourteen (n1), with the rest of my material. Which seemed significant for it was St. Valentine's Day and, two years to the day Cupid had called at my doorstep (n4:10).

59  While I felt it was almost critical that I give it to her at this time, and an important sign, for we're speaking of two people meant to be joined. And what better day than Valentine's Day! But she took the day off, and I had to wait until the next day to give it to her, which was a big letdown. As significant as it seemed at the time, I've since resigned myself to what it represented. Indeed I've gone further to explore this, with more substantial results, after placing the personal ad in the paper the next year, as I said in Gerarai (n4:13). And as this didn't pan out either, I haven't place so much emphasis on it, at least until January, 1997 (n15:1).

The Lunch Date

60  The next day, on February 16th, everything came to a head when my boss took this young woman out to lunch. I had just got back from lunch myself when they both left, and I began to feel apprehensive. For I recall they'd gone out to dinner earlier, and something appeared to be going on. I didn't suspect anything serious. And just before lunch he boasted about it, though he tried to be discreet at first, saying whatever people hold in their minds was fine with him. And he took a lot of delight in saying it, as if that's what he wanted to do—cultivate the innuendo. When they got back they were laughing and smiling, and flirting a lot! Being the first time they really displayed this, and the last thing I expected from my boss—who seemed to lose all sense of propriety—I became incensed. And I walked off the job.

61  Having commuted with somebody to work that morning, I started to hitchhike home. But I only got as far as the freeway exit, and began the two-mile walk back after a couple of hours. I managed to get back before quitting time, and finished the rest of the day, but without speaking to my boss, though I glared at him a few times. I then left with my ride. This was on Friday, and on Saturday, I was still angry when I drove to Valley of the Rogue State Park (46) (n53) and brooded most of the day! I then decided to write this woman a letter, and explain my circumstances: where I was coming from and why I was so affronted by she and my boss were doing. I finished composing it over the weekend.

62  On Monday I gave her the letter and, to insure both she and my boss understood, I gave a copy to him. He was the first to get back to me, and though he didn't show it at the time, he was very angry: I referred to him as arrogant and egotistical and said he was very tacky. He later said if he didn't know me better, he would have beaten me up or, "shoved the damn thing down my throat." And said I should consider what it looked like to her, like I was some kind of religious nut and, that she was alarmed about it. She never did get back to me, though I asked about it a couple of times. Indeed it was the last thing I wanted to do but, how do you present something like this, even if it's legitimate, without evoking some kind of suspicion? Like I already said, I wanted her to be familiar with my materials first, before I approached her about my feelings. And, I would have held back much of what I said in the letter, until later, if it hadn't been expedited by what she and my boss were doing. Speak now or forever hold you peace!

63  One thing I neglected to say, was my relationship with my boss had slowly deteriorated over the past few weeks, since I was rehired on January 16th, after a three month layoff. And I had wondered about it, for it wasn't getting any better, though I tried to resolve it with him: I didn't say anything specific though. I know it had a lot to do with the new building in Medford (n20), where everything was centrally located and out in the open, so you could see what everybody was doing. Unlike the building in Grants Pass (n15), with its upstairs, downstairs, shop in back, two shop buildings behind that and, small building down the street. Needless to say there were plenty of places to hideout. And my boss told me the new arrangement really bothered him. It bothered me too, so I understood what he was saying, but I didn't realize it would be such a big problem. I think because he felt insecure about it, that he was more arrogant than I was accustomed to. But, then again, we saw a lot more of each other. It was probably both. Thus for me the situation had completely changed—to where it wasn't the same company anymore!

64  But after this incident between him and the secretary, that was the end of it, and I could see no way to reconcile things. And while waiting at the freeway exit that day, I kept asking myself: "Why did it all fall apart?" For this was the place I called The Church, where I was quite content to stay before they moved. How could that happen if this were true? I got my answer that evening when I got home and looked up Revelation 14:16: "And he that sat on the cloud thrust his sickle in the earth; and the earth was reaped." Now I referred to this is in chapter 6, when substituting a month for a chapter and day for a verse (n6:90). Thus I'm speaking of the 14th month and the 16th day, which is February 16th. It's therefore significant what Swedenborg says about this verse in The Apocalypse Revealed: that it signifies the end of the church! So it seemed a change was forthcoming.

Theseus and Ariadne

65  Now I'm not requiring you to stretch your imagination too much, to see how this correlates with Theseus and Ariadne. The heir apparent to Athens' throne, and daughter of King Minos, both conspired to destroy the evil Minotaur, Ariadne's half-brother. Soon afterwards they became lovers and secretly set sail for Athens. Before long they set shore on the island of Naxos where, for some reason—which is still a mystery—Theseus deserted her. A probable account suggests Dionysus appeared to Theseus in a dream and demanded Ariadne for himself. While another says Dionysus and Ariadne were already married, and she had become unfaithful. And when Theseus awoke, he was horrified at the sight of Dionysus' approaching fleet, and fled with haste, leaving Ariadne behind in a deep sleep. Regardless of what happened, when Ariadne awoke to find Theseus gone, she wept bitterly. And in the midst of her despair, cried out to heaven for justice. Soon afterwards, Dionysus and his merry band arrived to console her, and they were promptly married; it was attended by all the gods. And they both ascended to heaven (n49; n15:35).

66  Thus we have the three masculine aspects fundamental to Ariadne (n35): Theseus, the mortal hero and lover, the natural (1); King Minos her father, the spiritual (2); and Dionysus, her true husband, the celestial (3). Whereby portraying the difference between Theseus and Dionysus: Ariadne must first put off her mortal side, Theseus (14) (n3:7; n4:124), which is accompanied by great sorrow—even death—before she can put on the immortal, and enter celestial marriage (32) (n4:51). Indeed some accounts claim Ariadne died in childbirth, or even hung herself, for fear of Artemis! While Rachel herself died in childbirth (14), giving birth to Benjamin, the 12th son (n4:145). This is detailed further below.

67  And for the next month at work, the outcome looking highly doubtful, I began working with the numbers 1, 3, and 4—my boss (1), myself (3) and this woman (4), respectively. I worked more specifically with the numbers 14 and 34, my boss and my relating with her, and expressed it as, 1 (44) 3, which then becomes 1 (2) 3—or, when reversed, 3 (2) 1. Whereby the number 44 corresponds to Jennifer (2) (n4:32). And so portrays the relation between The Church (12), the celestial marriage (32), as well as Rachel (14) and Vanessa (6): i.e., the numbers 14 and 34, which are true love (n4:123) and the bride to be (n4:66). While it's uncanny how it coincides with the New Church in heaven (32) and the New Church on earth (12) above! (n49; n4:110).

68  It's also funny how the King Arthur myth, a correlation I drew at that time, is nearly the same: where Arthur (34) and Guinevere (44)—i.e., Jennifer (44)—were the royal pair, before Lancelot (14) arrives, Guinevere's true love. I discuss this further in the accounts of Jennifer (2) (n4:32) and Sybil (4) (n4:51). And after years of strife and hardship, the two were finally reconciled or, at least represented, the heavenly marriage or, New Church in heaven (32) (n4:110). And like Theseus, Lancelot portrayed the New Church on earth (12).

Lack of Propriety

69  In the letter I expressed my anger towards my boss' lack of propriety and clearly told him to back-off: for I had designs on this woman myself. Indeed it concurs with what happened between Theseus and Dionysus! (n65). And I said she was only a play toy to serve his ego. Hence through all his conquests he'd had his share of women, and as this one wasn't that different, except for something new to brag about, the least he could do was refrain. He also knew me, and knew I was slow with women—and shy—and about my problems in the past. He knew I'd overcome them and even commented one day on how much I changed! He was there when I went to the mental hospital.

70  Up until now, I haven't fully disclosed his impropriety, for there's one thing I've withheld that clarifies this. But like in the myth, it wasn't fully understood why Theseus deserted Ariadne, though there was some hint of scandal. It therefore seems acceptable that I don't disclose it. He did tell me later he was intentionally flirting with her, but nothing was meant by it, and both he and she was aware of it. In other words he was trying to get everyone's attention—and, managed to get mine! It all but stopped when I confronted them though, or at least they didn't make an open display of it. And it appeared he lost all interest at that point and, deserted her. For another distraction?

71  As I said, the situation looked highly doubtful. I was sure I would quit in the next day or two. But after giving my boss the letter I managed to patch things up enough in my mind to continue—though it proved a rough road ahead. But on March 12th I finally decided I had enough, and gave my two week notice. I withdrew it a few days later though after a change of heart. This is when I had a long talk with my boss, and he revealed some of the things I spoke about. I continued to work until March 23rd when, first thing in the morning, my boss did something clearly uncalled for. It was petty enough, but in lieu of everything else, I couldn't find a way to redress it. I let it spin around in my mind most of the morning, before deciding it was time to leave—once and for all. Consequently I left at noon. It seems the two week notice was still in effect.

72  Now the timing of this proved significant, for I was already working with the numbers 323 and 44, as well as 3113, my relating with my boss, along with the expression 1 (44) 3, which then becomes 3 (44) 3. When added, 310 + 013, you get 323. While 31 + 13 = 44. Thus we're speaking of the consolidation of my relationship with my boss—through this woman's will—divided between us (44). And coincided with the day I left—March 23rd! or, 3-23. It's also significant how many hours I had on my timecard—44!

73  The number 323 also portrays my desire for this woman, yet it's my boss' number, which corresponds to the number 1: it speaks of the fact that I left, while the two remained behind. And as I don't believe there were any hard feelings between us, it affirms the consolidation of our relationship. And yet another unusual thing happened when I began writing about my boss and Theseus here—on the same day! When looking up the myth, in the only book I used for a reference, I was surprised to find it begin on page 323! It was uncanny! (n1:20). And so reiterates what I was thinking all along. And since it corresponds to the number 1—or, the man's intellect (n3:13)—it refers to what is theoretical or hypothetical. It's therefore significant that the name Theseus sounds like thesis, which is the same thing!

The Drive Home

74  That's about the extent of my story, except I'd like to relate what happened on the way home—what I intended to do all along! I drove up Interstate 5 (n1) and it was a beautiful spring day. The air was fresh and clear, the sun shone through the clouds, brightly illuminating them, with patches of deep blue sky. The mountains loomed in front, and to the sides, and the trees were lush and green. I couldn't help but notice, in part because I didn't normally drive home at noon, and again, it was a delightful day. And there it was, milepost 46! (n53). I had kept an eye on it for over a month, wondering if they would ever fix it. And I enjoyed the drive so much that I nearly missed it. But, they finally fixed it! And I marveled, for it was like somebody upstairs saying: "You're business is done . . . now close the door behind you." And I continued to drive without looking back.

75  There's not much else to say, except I deemed it the end of the church, regarding the company. And from there I debated on whether I should go to Idaho (n6:67) or back to California (n11:437). I decided to go back to California, to Santa Rosa, and commenced drawing a parallel to the kingdom of Judah being taken captive by the Babylonians. 2 Kings 24-25 2 Chronicles 27  I spoke of Santa Rosa, the Babylon of my youth, in chapters 10-11 (n10:17; n11:23). Which is funny, for it was the same year Saddam Hussein invaded Kuwait, and captured the attention of the entire free world! And, what you may not know is Iraq was once the kingdom of Babylonia! with Baghdad, its capitol, the city of Babylon. While it's funny how Saddam Hussein claimed to be a second Nebuchadnezzar—the Babylonian king who captured Judah! (n2:7).

76  One final thought. The company moved onto a piece of property in north Medford near the airport, which ran adjacent to Bear Creek (n20; n11:153), about half-mile north of Highway 62, right after crossing Bear Creek (n11:436). Not that I'm implying anyone is ignorant which, is what a bear signifies (n9:17-21). It just seemed odd, and upon my leaving and moving back to California, it would have been towards the end of the 22nd year, regarding Joseph and the number 2112 earlier (n6). And, since the number 22 portrays the honeymoon, in accord with Justine (8)—and, circumcision—where indeed Justine shed's the bearskin of ignorance (n4:85), I'm wondering if it had anything to do with that? And, if I ever return, it will be in the 23rd year, signifying true intercourse (n4:88).